The Mind Wanders

Last week I got some surprising news. I needed to take Tesfa to the hospital for an ultrasound. His head circumference had jumped from 50% to 95% since coming home. The dr. was a little alarmed. There is nothing like someone telling you something could be wrong with your kid to make your mind wander to some awful places. I googled hydrocephalus and began to wonder what the results were going to tell me. I think to myself (as the over thinker lets worry to much kinda person I am) we can cash in our 401K to pay for any surgeries and sell the house if we have to (seriously this is what Im thinking even before we had the test!).

I spent most of Friday crying my eyes out. Once again I felt/feel so blessed to have The Tribe. It's great to have friends who know what you are going through. I worried we were going to get the "you should have known" comments from friends outside the group (meaning they were waiting for something to go wrong with our adoption). Luckily that did not happen. The few people we did tell said nothing of the sort and only hoped that the results would prove that our son was fine.

As soon as we got home from the hospital I called the dr to see when the results would be in. They said it could be a day or two. UGH! I called again this morning and still no news. I saw friends for a playdate and then another friend for lunch. When leaving lunch I saw I had a missed call and sure enough it was the dr. office. They said they had the results. I wanted to throw up! If nothing was wrong they would have said that on the message, I thought. But sure enough nothing is wrong. Tesfa just has a big head like I know many Ethiopian children do. I'm thankful my son is fine and we don't have to cash in the 401K or sell the house and live in a one bedroom apt.