One week

It's been a week since The Call came. We are still in shock. His photo is all around the house and work. Right now I feel like I am able to breathe a sigh of relief. I don't have to check the forum every 45 seconds to see if we have moved up on the list.

But my heart breaks for his loss. His story crushes me. I'm not sure how I will explain to him why Joel and I get to be the lucky ones to raise him. We will figure it out. We have no choice.

Some very wise woman said recently that when your heart breaks it gives it room to expand. If this is the case my heart has grown immensely and will continue to do so.