Don't judge me

Ok this may be pushing it and borderline pathetic, but... I went to print an updated copy of The List. You know that thing I obsess over daily. I mark the names off with a pink or blue highlighter to reflect the recent referrals. Well when I went to print The List it printed in pink. I know we are just out of cyan ink but still. Maybe it's a sign. I think it becomes slightly less pathetic when I know how pathetic it sounds before I "say" it.

According to The List 2 families want a boy, 5 want a girl and the rest are open (these are the families that are in front of us). Do you have a gut feeling about our referral? My dear friend Emily swears we are "having" a girl. My niece says we are having a couple girls. My best friend, Betsy, has always said she thought we'd have a girl first. We have lots of boy clothes so I wouldn't be surprised at all if we got a referral for a girl.

Honestly I don't care either way. I want both!

Wow I just realized this post sounds sorta...optimistic. How can that be?